So...this is it. This is my blog. I have been SUPER hesitant about starting this blog, because really...why would anyone want to read what I have to say? For much of my life, I have done things to be on the "safe" side...and that even meant not taking risks that *might* cause embarrassment or injury...just in case I messed up. That's why in elementary Phys. Ed. I would always let others go first...to give me time to decide whether or not I would be able to perform the task well. That's why in the 6th Grade, I quit my campaign of running for "Class Rep" and told everyone else to vote for Peggy Liao because I was scared I would lose to her (thanks, Neelam, for voting for me anyways!). That's why I never tried out for volleyball in high school...
And in the world of blogging...what if I write a blog and no one reads it? Or worse yet, people read it and leave terrible comments? What if? What if? What if?
But today is the day I start asking new "what if's." Instead of focusing on all the self-doubt I have, I choose to focus on the positive "what if's." What if something I say brings a smile to one person's face? What if my struggle today helps someone over their struggle tomorrow? What if my own insecurities and self-doubt keep me silent--keep me from telling about my God who helps me conquer all of these fears? What if my children read this one day and are relieved to find out that their mother doesn't have all the answers (even though she often thinks she does!) but she's willing to journey with them towards finding them? What if? What if? What if?
So...in pursuit of all the positive "what if's," all the good that God could bring out of this, and all the things he has already put on my heart to share...this blog begins and I invite you to join in through reading, commenting, and sharing your own "what if's" as well!
(It's weird...I feel like I'm writing the "Introduction" to a book or something...and at this point in time I feel like I need to make a dedication... :)
So, I dedicate this blog to my Heavenly Father, without whom I would only be left with the "what if's" that keep me from sharing my story.
Mel! Welcome to the world of being authentic and transparent online! You will do great. You have so many stories to share. Just as long as you share what you are passionate about and don't be afraid to give others a peek into your heart! Never underestimate the seeds it plants, even if just one in person. Good to you. I am honoured to be your first fan!
ReplyDeleteEd Kang
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http://www.giftofrelife.com
I read it! And I'm sure I'm not the only one :) Good on you for following God's small voice in starting something ... perhaps a first chapter in a new book ;)
ReplyDeleteBlessings friend ...
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I will read your blog! I am slightly obsessed with them and have accumulated a fair number of blogs to read since I started...oh 6 years ago! They are an amazing way to document thoughts and cultivate introspection. Have fun :)
ReplyDeleteOh, Mel, it's so nice to hear that someone else was a "what if" girl. "What if"s kept me from doing a lot of things - they still are.
ReplyDeleteYou do have so much to share, so much to give, so much with which to inspire others. I'm sure you will bring laughter, tears, and perhaps hold a mirror up to your readers who NEED to hear what you are saying so they will see in themselves what you are learning in your own life. I'm sure I will experience all three as I follow your writings.
I'm proud of you, Mel, and stand behind you 100% in prayer and support. :)
ReplyDeleteWell Mel, you brought a smile to this person's face! God bless you in this venture as you continue to bless others through your reflections on His goodness.
ReplyDeleteOh Friend...so thankful for a different way to hear your voice and encouragement! I'll be reading and cheering you on! =)
ReplyDeleteMel,
ReplyDeleteI smile when I see an email from you. It usually means you are up to something. Here goes something new and different. Looking forward to tracking with you.
Doreen
Love your blog. Looking forward to more.
ReplyDeleteWhat else you gonna do with an MA?
ReplyDeleteMel,
ReplyDeleteIt is great to hear someone as accomplished as you share stories about self doubt. It reminds us (me) that we are all human and on a journey that allows growth. Thank you for your openness and vulnerability. It is refreshing.
Luv Carissa :)
Well, you will definitely have at least one reader. I will be checking in on your blog regularly; it has been added to my list. I am looking forward to hearing your thoughts and stories. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeletegreat first post! look forward to reading more...
ReplyDeleteso proud of you Mel! LOVE it! oh, and THAT'S why you let Peggy win?? :) I always thought you were just the nicest person I knew...which is true too.
ReplyDeleteThanks everyone for the super encouraging words!! You have made starting this blog SO worth it. :)
ReplyDeleteIt has already been awesome "reconnecting" with some of you that I don't usually keep up with.
Feeling blessed,
Melonie :)
Mel,
ReplyDeleteThis blog is much better than any Easter letter could have been. ; )
Keep it up!
-Ivy
Hey, it's one of my blog bookmarks now :)
ReplyDelete~from Vivian
Thanks for writing this so honestly and beautifully. This has God-inspiried all over it; hesitant to start it, scared, feeling unworthy...must be God!
ReplyDeleteLove, Lea
Vivian & Lea! It's great to see you here! I miss those days at the House :) Thanks for dropping by...maybe one of these days we can see each other in person!
ReplyDeleteHi Mel, Congratulations on starting a blog! I set up my blog about a year ago and have loved it! You can check it out at http://seriousplay.typepad.com and I will definitely be following yours! Blessings, Cindy
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